Sexual Preferences.

[pyrosgf]

It's funny, I'm 24 years old and I've known I was bi-curious since I was probably 16. Knowing it in theory and crushing on women on TV never bothered me. I'd never come across a girl in person I was attracted to.

All this changed, and ironically everything in my life seems to lead back to Adam. I met a girl at one of his concerts, and immediately we clicked. She's gorgeous, funny, sweet, and the first girl I've ever met that I was immediately drawn to.

This is a jolt to everything I thought I knew. I'm not ashamed of it, but some part of me is freaking out. I've told her that I was interested and the feeling is mutual, but I'm terrified. Neither of us have been with a woman so I guess we're on even ground, but I don't even know.

My family has known for a while about my interest in women and they know about her and aren't judging me. I guess essentially I'm judging myself, and that's well, exactly like me. I have to second guess every decision I make. 

I guess overall though it's nice to be able to know after the things that have happened with her that I am bi.  I liked kissing her more than guys I've kissed in the past and honestly I kinda feel like one of the missing pieces of my puzzle got filled in.  I'm really confused, but excited all the same to know that a whole new world has been opened up with this revelation.  

I know you're probably reading this, and I just want to thank you for showing me another part of myself.  I don't know where this is gonna go or what we are, but I feel better knowing we're gonna figure it out together.

Comments

[thrace-adams.livejournal.com]

Aww, thanks so much for sharing that bb!!! Don't be too hard on yourself. Just enjoy it. New loves are always scary and exhilirating and fun and just awesome. *HUGS*

[pyrosgf.livejournal.com]

I'm really enjoying it... I'm terrified but it's so worth the other feelings going along with it.

[valress.livejournal.com]

Thank you for sharing! *hugs* seeing people being themselves makes me very happy, *proud*

[pyrosgf.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Feels nice to be me these days.

[fobsessed54.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*!! it sucks to always have that little nagging head in the back of your mind that says "are you SUUUUUUURE???" but sometimes you just have to go with it. it sounds like you're happy :-)

[pyrosgf.livejournal.com]

Oh god yes... it's like really did I imagine it. After having kissed her I really am fairly blown away by the difference and how good it was. I am very happy. *hugs*

[silencefound.livejournal.com]

that's awesome! People should always be open to love! I hope everything works out for you, regardless of where this relationship takes you. Be happy and be yourself!

[pyrosgf.livejournal.com]

I'm working on it. I'm really trying to be open to this and for once I'm not afraid to let myself see what happens.

[luna-dea-82.livejournal.com]

Just be true to yourself and be happy.

[pyrosgf.livejournal.com]

I'm trying to do just that. =D

[jobhead.livejournal.com]

You have the best family, ever :) It's so cool that you can be yourself, explore new feelings and still have the support of the people who know and love you. I have a lot of respect for you and your courage. Seems like your instincts are good and lead you where you need to be! Keep listening!!! xoxoxoxoxox

[pyrosgf.livejournal.com]

My family is amazing, and I'm really trying to take the steps to forget my normal fears and just be.

[ragingdesire.livejournal.com]

That's fantastic, bb. I'm so glad you've found someone you can discover yourself with.


Is madamreaper, in another journal

[pyrosgf.livejournal.com]

I am too. Didn't see it coming but I'm glad.

[symphonyink.livejournal.com]

Don't be nervous, let it happen. If you really do like her and the feeling is mutual then it will only get better. I have had the same exact problem, and though I am a little younger I know how you feel. Though you're the lucky one having found someone, but I don't envy you at all. Like I said, let it happen and enjoy yourself every minute.

[pyrosgf.livejournal.com]

I'm really trying to be comfortable in my skin and giving myself the chance I never thought I would have. I hope you get the chance in future. <3