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pyrosgfI dunno I'm feeling oddly sad today. I busted out my Hanson Underneath Acoustic DVD. I don't know why I turn to Hanson when I'm sad. *shrugs* Yet another mystery.
I've got 20/25 granny squares done and connected for the blanket I've been crocheting. I have the last five center squares done and just have to add the second color. Once I get those done and connected I'll just need to add the border. I'll be so glad when it's done. SO GLAD. I just hope the people I'm making it for actually have the money to pay for it. I'll be using that money toward a tat I've wanted to get since 2009. Then I'll be down to finishing the never-ending granny square and the piece mom and I are working on.
On the bright side... I kinda sorta think I have a girlfriend... I use that term loosely because it terrifies me. Not for the reasons you might think. I've known in theory I was bi since I was like 12, but up until last September I'd never even kissed a girl. Well, once I did I figured out it was a lot more satisfying to me than kissing boys. Well, last September it was just one kiss and nothing more with this girl due to distance issues and general life getting in the way. So when I went to Arizona I met and ended up kissing a girl at a show I went to. We've kept in touch and I honestly am terrified. I mean I like her, but I've never been with a woman more than just a kiss and I feel like I'm in unknown territory just fumbling over myself. It's scary and exciting. I've told her I'm not looking for anything serious and I should define serious by saying I ended up living with both of my serious relationships. I've never really got to just date and hang out with someone. I want that with her. I want a chance to figure the fuck out what I'm doing without it becoming the co-dependent thing I tend to attract with men.
Anyway, I think that pretty much sums up my insanity for now. My sinuses are all out of whack so I think I'm gonna flop in front of the tv for a while.
I've got 20/25 granny squares done and connected for the blanket I've been crocheting. I have the last five center squares done and just have to add the second color. Once I get those done and connected I'll just need to add the border. I'll be so glad when it's done. SO GLAD. I just hope the people I'm making it for actually have the money to pay for it. I'll be using that money toward a tat I've wanted to get since 2009. Then I'll be down to finishing the never-ending granny square and the piece mom and I are working on.
On the bright side... I kinda sorta think I have a girlfriend... I use that term loosely because it terrifies me. Not for the reasons you might think. I've known in theory I was bi since I was like 12, but up until last September I'd never even kissed a girl. Well, once I did I figured out it was a lot more satisfying to me than kissing boys. Well, last September it was just one kiss and nothing more with this girl due to distance issues and general life getting in the way. So when I went to Arizona I met and ended up kissing a girl at a show I went to. We've kept in touch and I honestly am terrified. I mean I like her, but I've never been with a woman more than just a kiss and I feel like I'm in unknown territory just fumbling over myself. It's scary and exciting. I've told her I'm not looking for anything serious and I should define serious by saying I ended up living with both of my serious relationships. I've never really got to just date and hang out with someone. I want that with her. I want a chance to figure the fuck out what I'm doing without it becoming the co-dependent thing I tend to attract with men.
Anyway, I think that pretty much sums up my insanity for now. My sinuses are all out of whack so I think I'm gonna flop in front of the tv for a while.
