Rough Month

Last time I wrote was a month ago.  Since then everything got turned upside down.  February 16th my mom called because she thought Jack had broke one of his back legs and they took him to the vet.  Vet said he had heart disease and a blood clot went from his heart to where blood entered his legs and paralyzed him.  They put him on blood thinners and said if they could get it busted up he'd probably be okay, but would have to be on medication for the rest of his life.  Mom called when she got home and let me know all this and that the vet would call her in an hour before she left to update her on how he was doing.  I was already crying by this point.  Got off the phone with her and less than 15 minutes later the phone rang and I knew.  I just fucking knew.  Vet called her, said she'd been working on him for ten minutes and wanted to know when she should stop trying.  He'd gone into cardiac arrest.  He would've been six in July.  I spent that night bawling to the point I gave myself a migraine and damn near made myself sick.  I decided that night I wanted to do something I've never truly done in my life, get drunk.

RIP my sweet boy.  This was taken shortly before I left for Arizona.

On the 17th I went to Ice Pics Video Bar.  Nice little place and they played Adam's video for Better Than I Know Myself so I was very amused.  The strippers were entertaining and I ended up having more to drink than I realized.  My step dad ended up paying one of the boys to give me a  private lap dance.  That totally didn't work.  So he ended up just sitting in my lap and we talked for a little while.  IN the process I discovered aside from stripping he also used to be a drag queen.  By the end of the night I got up to tip him one more time and the world was spinning.  First time in my life I've ever been drunk.  I don't ever drink to get drunk and after that night I learned I don't wanna do that again.  Not at all. Couple of drinks and I'm good.

I'm trying to think of what happened the next couple of weeks but it's all really a blur of crying at the drop of a hat.

The next thing I can consciously remember is February 26th.  Whatever awards show was on that night and I went to Apollos.  They were having a viewing party and I was there for the latter part of it.  That was a weird night.  Had a little guy walk past me, glance at me on the way to the bathroom, once he gets to the bathroom door he looks back at me again and comes over.  Apologized for staring but told me how beautiful I was.  This is they point where I should say he was a lil gay guy.  Why is it the gay guys are the ones that compliment me?  So that was odd, then a lil while later same guy went to the bathroom and came out with a guy behind him and he stops the guy right in front of me to say how beautiful I was and didn't the other guy think so.  It was just strange.  I didn't think the night could get stranger.  I should know by now that's never the case.  After the awards were over I moved from my perch near the bar over to one of the table on the other side of the room.  After I got settled one of the bartenders came over and started setting up the stage for the strippers.  After he finished he plopped down on one of the bar stools beside me and smirked.  He asked me if I'd noticed the guys in the beanie.  I vaguely knew he was talking about, he'd been sitting at the bar and I had my back turned to it.  Apparently the guy had been trying to give the bartender his number to give to me all night.  Bartender, bless him, told the guy I was waiting on my boyfriend.  I thanked him and gave him a hug.  It's amusing to me that even the bartenders know I'd rather be left alone.  So yeah, my last jaw dropping moment of the night was when BabyDai was announced for his first number.  Adam's For Your Entertainment started and I flipped.  He didn't tell me he was doing it or I would've recorded it, but holy fuck.  He was wearing a leather jacket and came out with a cane and everything.  Came up and sang the lyrics at me.  It was just awesome.  I later cussed him because he didn't tell me he was going to do it.  He said he wanted it to be a surprise and he'd done it for me.  Thought that was sweet. 

And if you haven't already noticed I really only have anything interesting to note on the weekends for the most part.  On the 4th, we (step dad, his mistress ((yeah it's complicated,)) and I went to Apollos for the drag show and the strippers.  Khloe V Monroe was part of the drag show... that is one gorgeous queen.  If I didn't know better I'd swear that was a girl and I've seen her in and out of drag.  Even as a guy he has a woman's eyes.  Gorgeous.  I also remember one of them did a couple of Kelly Clarkson songs which made me laugh.  Don't really have much recollection of the strip show that night at all other than the scary leather daddy guy I'd never seen before. 

And now finally we get to the good part.  This weekend was awesome and a pain at the same time.  Saturday Scorp came here for the weekend.  I'd bought us tickets to meet Kenya Michaels from RuPaul's Drag Race and she decided we'd make a weekend of it.  So we did.  First thing though in her flaily hugging she caught my toenail with her boot and ripped it up.  Only place it was still attached was the top.  Luckily for whatever reason I carry band-aids in my tiny purse and just strapped the nail back to my toe and went on about our day.  We went to a hotel and sat and caught up for a bit.  Was completely awesome.  I always forget how much I miss her until we're in the same room together.

Then we decided to go to Ice Pics.  By this point alcohol was sounding nice.  So we settled on one of the couches in the corner.  They line the walls.  I had a couple of drinks and we watched the boys walk around half naked and talked about fic and a bazillion other things.  At one point Scorp had went to the bathroom and one of the dancers I'd never seen before walked by and thought I was alone so he told me he'd be right back.  By the time he got back Scorp was with me and he was like oh you're not alone and then proceeded to hug us and flail because we were women and we smelled good.  Keep in mind most of the guys who work at Ice Pics are gay including Michael who is the one who's flailing over women being there.  Anyway, after he wandered off we got on the discussion of looking for other places with strippers and I saw Dai and waved him over to ask if he knew of anywhere.  He no sooner got in front of me when Adam's WWFM vid started playing and I was flailing at Scorp and the next thing I know Dai is in my lap writhing around and mouthing along with the lyrics while Scorp is cackling.  They both know how I feel about lapdances.  Dai is a lil brat and does it just because he knows it's awkward to me.  So now I can't here WWFM without my thoughts migrating further into dirty land. Anyway, same thing happened when I went to tip the bartender.  He's a presh lil guy.  Reminds me so much of Justin from QAF.  I proceeded to remind him being in my lap wasn't necessary.

Later in the night once the boys finished up the go-go dancing part of the night Michael came back over to us to say goodbye.  And in the process I somehow got my first jello shot via plunger syringe type thing.  Never had a jello shot that way before.  Didn't even have the chance to protest before there was jello in my mouth.  Michael is kinda like the energizer bunny on crack. 

We ended up staying for the drag show at 10pm to make sure we were nice and sober.  It was weird.  There was a bachelorette party there.  I've never seen a bachlorette party in a gay bar.  The drag show was fun though.  After it was done Scorp and I went to Jenny's (s'what they refer to this Denny's as, it's in an area with a lot of gay bars) and had a late dinner.  It was after one when we finally hauled our asses back to the hotel. 

So Friday I started getting a sore type place in my nose.  I note that because the next pictures I'm going to post from the Sexiest Bartender Competition definitely don't look like me.  My face is swollen.  Anyway, Sunday morning we got up and got ready and hung out listening to Adam until about 1pm when we left the hotel to go to competition.  Doors opened at two.  We went and had Subway and then headed to Apollos.  The day as a whole was long, but very entertaining.  Got to catch up with a couple of guys we met at the Raja show last year along with a lot of other people that I've got to know since I've been here.  I think the best part was probably watching all the people's reaction to Scorp and I.  We'd get these looks and she and I would laugh because we knew they were trying to work out if we were together or not... and then if they thought they were they were trying to figure out how the relationship worked.  Led to lots of amusement as out plastered lil dancer friend Michael was going on about how he usually didn't like lesbians, but Scorp and I were awesome.  It was hysterical.  And here's a few pics.  Also going to attempt to post vids.

This is Cameron.  He reminds me of Justin from QAF.



This is Michael.

When the competition was nearly over they finally announced when the M&G with Kenya would start.  Lemme say by then it was about 8ish in the evening.  I was tired and my face felt even worse.  Kenya though was an absolute doll.  First thing she said was come here and give me a hug.  Totally a sweetheart and she seemed surprised I'd had photos printed for her to sign.  She ended up telling me a little about the pic which was really cool.  Signed them for me and just really very friendly and so down to earth... and did I mention tiny?  OMG 5' without heels, just a hair taller than me in them.  Looks a lot less awkward than my pic with Raja last year.  More pics.

Vids from the competition: Includes Kenya/Cameron's lapdance in two parts/Cameron's second performance with Fenix which involved them making out.  You'll wanna turn down the volume if you watch.  My camera isn't great with music audio.

Totally a fun time.  After that since the competition ran into the normal Sunday night events at Apollos Scorp and I decided to try out Club 24 as they also boasted male strippers.  We went over there... sat long enough to have a drink and left.  It was a real shithole in my opinion.  Think dark seedy gay bar.  After that we went to The Pita Jungle (I'd never even heard of it) and had a late dinner.  I was really amused.  Very nice little place.  Food was good and I chatted to Scorp about some stuff that's been bugging me.  I love her... she always manages to make me realize things I wouldn't have thought of.  Now I know why I'm so intrigued by Dai.  Personality-wise he comes off a lot like Tommy.  And personality-wise Tommy and I are similar.  It's unusual for me to come across someone who is snarky and honest.  I'm very interested in that.

Bonus lil vid of Dai dancing from February 5th.

After that we headed back to the hotel and spent the next lil bit catching up on Adam news for the day and going nuts on facebook.  I finally crashed but ended up waking up a couple hours later because my face was throbbing.  It was a rough morning from there.  Kept waking up and using a cold bottle of water to numb my face.  After Scorp and I got up and moving it was a lil better, but ugh.  All in all though it was an amazing weekend and when she dropped me off it was all bah because this weekend I'm not going to have her around to hang out with.

Tuesday I finally consented to go to the hospital.  I'm going to post a pic from Tuesday night and one from yesterday.  They gave me two antibiotics.  Said I had facial cellulitis.

And just so you can compare here's a pic from March 5th.

Granted it's a lil better today.  I've been sitting here writing this entry for far too long though.  Apologize for any spelling/wording errors as I'm not looking back over it before posting.  Also a heads up I wrote some fic last week.  We'll see as to whether it ever sees the light of day or not.