Confused...

So I made the off-handed comment today that I didn't want to spend the winter here. I hate snow, hate being cold, etc... and just didn't think anymore about it. My mom came back at me an hour or so later that she was buying me a one-way ticket to Phoenix for Christmas and I could stay until I wanted to come home. So yeah, how weird. Now when I visited scorpio_15 we traveled to Phoenix to see Raja's show. It was one night and now she's decided she's sending me there to live with my step dad and his sister for the winter.

I really don't hate the idea. I mean I think I could probably get a part-time job while I was there so I wouldn't be a financial burden and they have gay bars. I'm just scared my mom is just trying to push everyone away.

My mom also made the suggestion I should start organizing people's livejournals for them to make some money. I did it once for a friend, but I just don't think think it's something that would catch on. Organizing makes my obsessive need for things to have their place happy so who knows.

Ugh, we had a heart to heart and I had a nice little cry-fest. I just don't know what I'm doing anymore. The fact that I've had Outlaws of Love on repeat in my head for days I'm sure isn't helping my mindset.